my stories

well i had a drama filled summer cant you tell LMAO DRAM DRAMA its time to leave that behind and jump for joy an Anime Con has finally hit somewhere close to me yeah!!!!!!  Well lets see how many pics i can bring back ..... i really want to learn how to make a cosplay outfit but im gun shy when it comes to sewing lol ive never could see stright and well lets face it, it shows when i sew lol

what are we my love?
why am i hanging on to you?
why wont you tell me
its driving me crazzy
and all i want to know is it real over 
or have we just restarted things from squar one?
what do you feel for me?
is thier any room in your life for me?

I hate the way you talk about her
  its the way i talk about you
I hate the smile you have when you think about her
 do you love her?
I hate when you two spend time toghter
 when you wont even spend it with me
I hate the way you choose her over me
 it happens all the time
I hate hearing about her
 but im trying to be the bigger person
I hate you when you talk about her
 i think about leaving

these feelings i have for you pain me so
i cant escape them 
i cant tell if your just playing with me or leading me on
i dont know what i mean to you
i know this summer thiers been so much BS going around about me that its unreal at points
all you do is hear them while i have to live this life when i know i have done no wrong
yes these rumors cause me pain 
yes they tear into my very core 
but thier not true
they never where
you are my world, you have my heart
i see nobody but you
i miss you so much right now 
i know we broke up and you stop calling me babe 
but yet if we are no more then why are we acting like this?
the only thing thats changed is you no longer call me babe
are we truly seperated or our we both still hanging on
i know i am but im not to sure about you

is it time to move on to flow as the water and move without turning back?

i still think about him i still miss him we still talk.

part of me hopes that when he gets back hell see why he feel in love with me to begin with

who knows i just miss him and its hard to get the hang of being alone.

Me and him are over now and it hurts me deep inside.
thiers to much drama to much pain
I want to run away and hide 
just so love doesnt find me again
im tired of haveing my heart broken and stepped on
i just want to end my feeling i dont want to feel anything anymore

Where have all the good guys gone 
why are their so many Ass's when it comes to guys
Will someone tell me where all the good guys are hiding 
I swear i looked under ever rock in my town and still the only good guys ive found
were either taken or gay
WTF???

Im still waiting for you,
This summer has been hard and its not over yet
How long must this go on?
Im still waiting for you to tell me that you love me 
Im still waiting for you to come home to me
I wait for you because i love you
and my love for you runs deep 

I know that thier is another who loves you
And she doesnt know that we are together 
But why would it be so bad if she knew 
yes sometimes the thought of her drives me crazzy
And i hate the fact that you still hang out with her
this is my jelously 
this is my pain

I dont want to be a secret anymore
I want to be able to hold your hand in public
I want to be able to kiss you when ever i want
so please 
let me scream my love for you from the roof tops
Let the world know that we are together
that we have been together for almost a year

I sit awake all night waiting for the sun to rise 
Waiting for the time when i have to call you and wake you up
i think about you
all night
I think about how we met and when i fell in love with you
I was taken then
but now im not
sometimes its doesnt even feel as if we're togther
sometimes it feels as tho were simply passing each other
I wonder what your dreaming of 
I'm praying that its me
I wonder if you love me
and im hoping you love me as much as i love you
I hate these sleepless nights
they make me dread the day ahead
I know the things i fear will pleg my mind
yet still i sit here wide awake 

ok small celebration for me yay I found out how to change my style and what nots lol i rock i just wanted to take the time and say that ive acomplished something tonight lol maybe i should find my bed im lossing my mind ^^ well take it easy everyone

ok its 12:30 in the morning here and im just trying to figure out how this all works lol well i want to be a writer but my chr. lack depth if anyone has any info they can give me on how to make more of a realistic chr. plz plz i beg of you TELL ME lol any how thats all i have to say for now who knows i have no life thier might be another one of these blogs or journals in here before anyone wakes up who knows^^